The Dating Life Of A Middle Aged Man
Published on May 26, 2004 By Melakon In Welcome
I really like to journal, but I am away from pen and paper for so much of the day, that I decided to put together a "blod" just chronicling my dating life. I was married for 15 years, and although I have had a lot of dates in the last few months, the experience has left me unsatisfied.

One of the problems is that I am not meeting the women I would really like to date, or the women I do date have zero spark for me.

What is it I am looking for? What am I hoping to find? After being married for so long, I really don't want to get married again in the near future. I guess part of my problem is that I am making myself feel better about myself by dating as many women as possible, to bolster my self esteem or convince me that I am still attractive and/or desirable as a person. Part of my problem is that I have always tended to define myself based on how I was perceived by females. I wish I could break out of that cycle, and perhaps be a guy who couldn't care less about women. Unfortunately, I have always cared way too much about women...or more precisely, about how many women wanted to be with me. I guess I have such a crushing lack of personal identity and self confidence that I feel like I am nothing unless an attractive women likes me or loves me.

Comments
on May 27, 2004
Maybe dating isn't the best option at the moment. Time learning to like yourself might be better. Difficult at first, but worth it in the end. Just a suggestion